Fear of Success

Here I am, the day before the grand opening of my life long dream. I’ve already sobbed, breathed myself through fear and broken down in my husbands arms. The cycles goes like this: extreme clarity and vision followed by mass action, creativity, then…..what the hell am I doing…..will it work…..who am I to do this………exhaustion, fear, tears, breakdown. Then……in the soft sweet cocoon of my own wet bundle ( by wet I mean tears ) on the couch, my soul starts speaking to me. Sarah, sweet Sarah, you are doing such a good job. I see you. You are held and supported. You are deserving. You are capable. It’s okay to feel this fear. Fear is a sign you are doing something big. And girl…..you are doing something BIG! It’s going to be okay. In fact it’s going to be more than okay, because you are following your heart and your purpose. Fear is what holds people back, keeps us living small, detours us from that mass leap of faith. Today, fear does not win. Fear is telling me I’m human and scared of the unknown. But fear does not drive the bus. I DRIVE THE BUS! And this bus is headed for success. Success to me means I am embodied, happy and thriving both on a soul level and a financial level. My dreams do not exist on a small paying field. The only way to true success is to step beyond any limitations I have held, reside in trust, and show up. Show up……….show up. Thank you fear for showing me I am playing big!